It was a beautiful Thanksgiving - it could not have been nicer. I am not sure why, but I felt like I didn't belong. I felt outside of everything. Maybe it was me.
All I want to do it cry, my stomach is in knots. And quite honestly, I don't want to move with Amy to Durham. Mom and I should downsize and move to a smaller house or something. But I don't want to move where I don't know anything - and have a larger feeling of what I am feeling now.
I am feeling sorry for myself. I will get over this and will probably move to Durham. I just don't belong anywhere. I don't have my own.
And who do I say this to? People will get their feelings hurt. I will be selfish or told that I am selfish. I never win, if winning is the issue. It isn't, but I sometimes wish things were different. Don't know how different. I am just cranky and my feelings were hurt. I know...suck it up and get over it. And I will.
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