Is this wrong? I don't hate her, really. I just don't like her. We would never be friends. I guess we could agree to disagree about everything. Today, I am not sure what happened. But I was wrong in every way. Mom said to me "I used to sit in the kitchen everyday for 30 years, I would like to get back to it". Which was her way of telling me to get my computer off the kitchen table. So, I have moved all my stuff into my room ~ and I have nothing of mine downstairs. Which works for me. I was just downstairs so I could be close to her daily, while she sits in the library every day. She even has her meals in there! Works for me.
I actually cried. Not in front of her. I cried at Nancy's while I took care of her animals. But I am better than that and I am better than her. I have bent over backwards to take care of her and I will continue. Because I am not going to feel guilty and I am going to sleep at night. Mom is exactly like Sissy. Both mean and self centered. I have stopped that line - I don't have any children and I am not going to have any.
I am actually having a drink to settle down and be able to drive her to meet everyone for dinner. I may just drink dinner. And smile.
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